The Truth of the Heart

Follow your heart. Listen to your heart. The truth of the heart is something our culture seems to both idealize and demonize.  I have always had a loud heart voice. It has never let me down even as it has encouraged me to take wild leap after leap in my own life. I have often found it curious when others’ seem to have a hard time hearing the voice of the heart. Then I realize, so often, what the heart is yearning for is beyond cultural boundaries, beyond social constraints, past what is ‘good’ or ‘right’ or ‘moral.’ The truth of the heart is pure and holds the essence of love, but love has no fixation on color, or religion, or social structure or family dynamic. Pure love transcends all of this.

When I was fifteeen I had a burning crush on a boy of color and my family reacted very negatively to this news. I became aware that my heart’s truth at times challenges others. Certainly we have all experienced this at one time or another. This stepping into heart’s truth requires courage. Many who have followed their heart have often been shunned by the social norms at the time. Jesus, Joan of Arc, even Ammachi the living saint of India is hated by many of my South Indian friends. As one friend gently reminded me recently, it seems the brighter the light, the darker the shadow mirrors to remind us of the dance of duality that exists within our limited human perception.

Oftentimes we do things, lie even, to make sure we don’t hurt or harm another’s fragile self while burying our own truth deep within. When that truth eventually surfaces, whether its in the form of a breakup, quitting a job, coming out, a disease, we may be judged and put into the mercy of other’s fear and projections. When we betray our own heart, our own truth for so long it seems shocking when it is revealed to others. What is it that we so desperately try to protect or hold onto? What can we shed to step ever more powerfully into alignment with the voice of our hearts?

Ultimately, when we step into love with the fierce flame of compassion and clear sight, we burn up the ego’s wish to be right. The desire to hold onto a small self that won’t feel unsafe, lost, betrayed or hurt.  Love transcends all of this too. Love knows no boundaries.

So much of what we learn, conceptually about what is wrong or right, black or white, good and bad comes from our families, our societies, our cultural standards. I am inspired by certain indigenous practices at the time of coming-of-age when children becoming adults would shed their own human parents and invite the earth and the skies to become their guiding force. That the universal language of love, care, compassion and support may speak to us through those we choose to be in our lives. Through the trees and creatures and stones. Through the infinite night sky. To remember, in love we are part of one another and we are not our concepts, our beliefs, our thoughts.

Ultimately, the heart speaks its own language and it is not the conceptual language of reason or rational. Rumi’s poem captures this so eloquently:

There is some kiss we want
with our whole lives,
the touch of Spirit on the body.

Seawater begs the pearl
to break its shell.

And the lily, how passionately
it needs some wild Darling!

At night, I open the window
and ask the moon to come
and press its face into mine.
Breathe into me.

Close the language-door,
and open the love-window.

The moon won’t use the door,
only the window.

sufi mystic – jelaluddin rumi – 13th century



Bridges of Impossible Love

This month I had the fortunate opportunity to attend a Shaman Conference themed “Manifesting Bridges of Impossible Love” to both participate and present my work on Self-Marriage. This gathering, the 7th Annual Shamanic Conference hosted by the Sacred Circle of Great Mystery Shamanic Society, was an incredibly rich, creative and transformative experience led by Jean-Luke Edwards, shaman and holder of the Seanair of Sagh’ic Tire Dhream Tradition.

I knew next to nothing about the conference, and honestly, although I had spent time preparing my own workshop, I barely had a chance to tune into the meaning or significance of this gathering. Having never been to Canada, knowing almost no one except Stephanie and one lovely shaman lady I met here in Portland, Lauri Shainsky, a local shamanic sound healer, I felt like a newbie, a beginner. Entering into such a sacred and wildly creative gathering with a fresh mind was wonderful, so open and revealing.

Christina Pratt, founder of Last Mask Center for shamanic healing in Portland opened the workshops for the week.  That morning, she said something that struck a deep chord in me. We were practicing journeying to the essence energies of Love or Wisdom, Virtue and Beauty. She remarked on Virtue, mentioning that in the Taoist sense this means ‘standing at the threshold.’

Standing at the threshold…at the threshold…the threshold. I can definitely relate to this.


I have found my entire life has been a series of thresholds, to stand in that place of the unknown and face the mystery over and over again. Often unwanted, often terrified by the wildness that accompanies the opening of one’s heart in such a way. Yet, it is becoming a bit more familiar in passing years.  In other words, I’m getting used to this outrageous yet blessing filled method of leaping and building my wings on the way down. Blessons: blessings with the lessons over and over again.

The conference was titled Tree and Star: A Calling for Reconciliation and was a gathering to manifest bridges of impossible love. This theme spoke to me so deeply. In the last two and a half years, since my journey to India to do a Self-Marriage ceremony, my life has changed irrevocably and has been an incredible process of stepping up to that threshold and annihilating my identity and selves.

When I returned from India, I was in a place of wellness and deep, deep content. My heart was wide open to the world in utter wonder, just dancing in pure joy along that threshold. I had returned to a thirteen year long relationship that was wearing thin. In that state of openness I met someone else who fueled me into even deeper stages of love, to explore all corners of my soul, my creativity and my passion.

After falling in love with myself, I opened up to falling in love with someone new.

My family dynamic changed drastically, I explored a completely new and different kind of love, I spent months apart from my daughter trying to navigate my new life. Moving through those life changes was like being on a river with unpredictable currents. I faced the storms of anger, rage and betrayal that can follow a huge break up and the huge transition of moving my entire life from my beloved Big Island to Portland, Oregon.

Walking through a new city, with almost no friends, alone, my lover gone, facing the seemingly insurmountable mountain of change and hearing the wild whistling of trains and urban sounds pressing down, the ache of concrete over land, the sounds of rushing cars, desperately seeking a place to live, I remembered what one teacher told me:

Enlightenment is a demolition project.

Indeed it is. There is no doubt in my mind that one of the more powerful unfoldings of my life began with my own Self-Marriage in September of 21012. Stepping more firmly onto my path, opening to presence was the fuel for my journey to say vows to myself.  Sitting inside an ancient Yogini temple on the far flung Eastern corner of India, I said vows with a few witnesses to honor my soul’s path and growth. I entered the threshold, I was initiated onto my path. I wrote about it Self-Marriage at elephant journal and I even filmed it!

Fire of the Goddess: A Ceremony of Self Marriage from Katalin Koda on Vimeo.

My first self-marriage vow was to call back all parts of myself and since then I have been doing just that. Old selves and parts have been showing up and re-integrating. This was indeed a new beginning of a deep and powerful reconciliation process with myself and my life’s work on earth.

So you can imagine, the invitation to present my work at a conference in which the theme was to manifest bridges of impossible love was timely and poignant. I was invited by Stephanie Mills, who attended a day long Fire of the Goddess Retreat on the Big Island of Hawaii a few years ago. She was moved by my work which led to an interview me on the Forked Stick Podcast and an invitation to their yearly gathering. See here to listen to my interview!


>Pele MagickThe entire week of this Shamanic Conference was about stepping into that place, that threshold of impossible love. To reconcile all parts of ourselves over and over again. To really deeply witness that we are all reflections of one another and the binding force is indubitably, LOVE.

I walked across burning coals, my prayer for impossible love burning in my heart to the fire, to the stars that shown above reminding us of our ancestors and our descendants.


I participated in Peruvian death rites, releasing my energy body and dying to learn the art of death and rebirth, wherein the power of healing lies for each of us.

I offered a workshop on Self-Marriage in which we explored aspects of loving our selves, the inner Beloved, the inner marriage of the sacred feminine and masculine. The participants wrote vows to themselves and said them outside in soft air, wearing vivid reds and dedicating themselves to practice self-love.

Self-marriage is powerful and radical and it changes us. It is a choice to not only stand at the threshold, but to create the threshold itself so that we are empowered to move forward and truly manifest bridges of impossible love.

I am currently offering my services to help you design their own self-marriage and call back all parts of yourself. This connects you to your divine purpose, to your place on earth and helps to heal your relations. Contact me if you wish to create a ceremony!

Ancestral Wisdom

Halloween has always been my favorite holiday, Samhain, or Witch’s New Year and dark starsDia de los Muertos or Day of the Dead.  This is a time when the veils are the thinnest between ordinary reality and non-ordinary reality of Dream Time.  We can take time to connect with the compassionate spirit helpers and our ancestors.

Honoring the ancestors has always been something that moves me very deeply inside.  Malidoma Patrice Some, the incredible Dagara healer from West Africa speaks of the ancestors as ALL who have passed over, not only the ones we are related to.  In Buddhism we are reminded over and over of our interconnectedness to all beings and are reborn as infinite beings in a multitude of lives.  Thus we are interwoven.  I remember vividly working deeply with the plants and receiving the message, “The dead nourish the living.”

Here I share a way to honor our ancestors based on my book, Fire of the Goddess: Nine Paths to Ignite the Sacred Feminine, published by Llewellyn Worldwide.

Calling on Guidance and the Ancestors

Connecting with our ancestors and sending healing is a potent way to reclaim our power and love.  Sometimes we are given very clear messages about how we can further honor our ancestors and may feel compelled to research their stories, do a DNA test to find out our ancestry (especially descendants of slavery who often have broken family trees), or collect letters and photographs from the past.  This helps give a voice to the stories that are flowing through our blood, connects us to the larger family tree and helps us to see how diverse and interconnected we are.

Create an altar with images and objects of your ancestors: photos, jewelry, clothing and gifts from those who have passed on.

Create sacred space by acknowledging the four cardinal directions as well as the earth and sky. Light a few candles in their honor.

Thank your ancestors for their gifts, stories and joys that they shared with you.  Think of all the amazing things they did in their lifetimes: the meals they cooked, the children they raised, the work they did, the gardens they tended, the people they loved.  Think back over the stories of their lives and open your heart in gratitude and connection to their lives. Know that in your bones is the DNA that you have inherited from them and that the stories of of their lives have inevitably been passed down to you.

Give an offering on your altar in memory of your ancestors, flowers perhaps, beads or something that reminds you of them.  If you have jewelry from your grandmothers or mother, or clothing from your grandfathers or father, you may choose to wear it for one moon (one month), to relate to their power, calling in their wisdom and connecting to your family’s ancestry.

As you sit in the candlelight, you may also want to ask for specific guidance from a particular ancestor.  I use grandmother below, but you can use any deceased relative.

Concentrate on the breath and intend that you connect with your ancestor.  Imagine one of your grandmothers sitting across from you.  She is sending you love and light and you can send her back love and light.  Feel the exchange between the two of you and spend several moments honoring the healing energy.  After several minutes, then form your question that you have clearly in your mind.  Ask your question either silently or aloud and visualize her receiving the question.  Sit quietly for some time and wait for a response.

When you feel she has answered, perhaps wait a few more moments and ask anything else, either for clarification or a further question.  Again, wait and receive the message, writing it down.  You may want to also ask her if there is anything you should do to help maintain your connection with your ancestors.

When you are finished, send healing love and gold light to your grandmother.  Take some time to generate gratitude in your heart for connecting in with her.  Imagine her surrounded by a golden bubble and floating off and away into the universe.  She is moving on for now, but you know in your heart that you can access her as needed.

When you have completed your efforts, sit and again thank the ancestors.  Close the sacred space and honor each of the elements.

When you go to sleep, intend that you dream your ancestors.  Be open to the messages and omens that may appear in the days that follow.  When I was writing Fire of the Goddess, I began to have more dreams of my Hungarian grandmother in particular.  One dream was especially powerful, as she visited me in glowing light and stressed that she was not dead, but alive and well.  She looked radiant and beautiful, sitting atop her hospital bed and I was filled with joy in seeing her again.  When I woke up, I looked at the calendar and realized it was April 23rd, the anniversary of my other grandmother’s passing!  The two were inextricably linked in my own mind from that point on and I use their guidance as needed.



pink sky

Pink Rainbow, Pink Sky Blessings

pink sky2This summer I told the story of Mami Wata, feeling the continuous urge to honor the waters, our most vital and irreplaceable resource.  I told the story to my daughter, to my niece and nephew, to sisters in Fire of the Goddess ceremony, to friends and my beloved.  Each time was beautiful and magical, however the most profound moment was on a small beach in Providence, Rhode Island.  We made our flower offerings to the ocean, cried our tears, sang songs and I told the beautiful loving story of Mami Wata.  As the ceremony closed the sky turned the most brilliant shade of pink.  As the pink sky deepened, a PINK RAINBOW appeared in the sky, as if to illuminate the mysterious, feminine watery wonder of Mami Wata.

pink rainbow3

angelic landscape

Soul Retrieval

In the shamanic perspective, most problems that lead to disharmony or dis-ease are rooted in the soul level.  On this level of our being, what prevents us from living a life of power, love and wisdom is usually one of two things: either we are experiencing soul loss or we have something disharmonious in our soul body, or energy field.

Having something that is disharmonious within the energy field is often due to entities such as imprints of earthbound spirits, disease energies and toxic environments. Other disharmonious causes are negative thought forms (from self or others), heavy habitual patterning and karmic influences.  These energies are related to us in some way and although they may or may not be negative on their own, they are causing disruption in the energy field.  When this occurs, shamanic healing requires an extraction to remove the unwanted energies.

In other cases, when a client is experiencing what is called soul loss, there is a abstract flower petalneed to find and bring back a piece of the soul that is missing.  Soul loss occurs during any traumatic event, or perceived trauma (the event itself may seem minor, but feel traumatic at the time).  This can be anything from serious illness, divorce, abuse or issues from childhood, unresolved grief and anger or negative thinking patterns accumulated over long periods of time.  During my first experience with a shamanic healing, I received a soul retrieval to help heal from the loss of my first baby daughter.

From a shamanistic perspective, when we experience soul loss, then we need a soul retrieval in order to restore harmony and wellness.  Shamanic cultures around the world use soul retrieval methods to journey and recover missing soul pieces and bring them back to their clients.  I have found this to be a powerful method to assist in deep healing from the direct experience of non-ordinary reality or Dream Time.  With the aid of my compassionate spirit helpers and drumming, I may receive the guidance to perform a soul retrieval for a client, however this is not something one can request necessarily without first consulting the spirit helpers. Sometimes we are not quite ready to receive and integrate this profound healing and must first perform an extraction, water ceremony or other kind of healing to prepare.

Once I have received the message to perform a soul retrieval, I then journey to either the Upper or Lower Worlds with my compassionate spirit helpers.  I often find out information about what happened during the time of trauma which can help the client to integrate and heal.  When I retrieve the soul piece, I usually perceive the soul as a particular color.  These soul colors are aspects of our soul that we are born with or have the potential to work with in this life. Often they carry a deeper meaning as well, a word or energy that the person is needing to integrate back into their lives such as joy, expression, or harmony.

This painting captures the vivid images of Dream Time that I experienced around the time of my soul retrieval.

Soul Retrieval and the Bear

Soul retrieval can have a profound effect on our lives.  After my own first retrieval I felt completely different the next day.  My original intention for the session was that I was feeling like I had a lot of power, but couldn’t fully access it.  Although it can take anywhere from six months up to a year to integrate a soul retrieval, I felt an immediate difference the very next day.  In the painting, Soul Retrieval and the Bear, I explore the visual imagery I saw during that retrieval as well as the guides who appeared.

To find out more about receiving a shamanic healing, see here!

aura reading

Aura Cleanse

aura readingTuning into our aura, or energy field, is an important part of development on the spiritual and healing path. Known as chi in Chinese, prana in Sanskrit, mana in Hawaiian, the universal life energy is the pervasive living quality that permeates our physical, emotional and mental body which comprises our aura or energy field. Our deepest thoughts, emotional stories and inspirations live in the aura often as stored patterns and potentials usually operating from the subconscious until we begin to pay closer attention. Cultivating a dialogue between our conscious and subconscious minds is a crucial way to create more clarity and harmony within.

As we start to navigate between our body and energy field, between our conscious and subconscious we may become more aware of a variety of energies, our own as well as others that can have a negative impact on us. Doing an aura cleanse helps to clear away unwanted energies or negative thought forms that might affect us. This is not to imply that negative energies lurk around every corner waiting to pounce on us, however just as we wash our hands to prevent colds, we can also cleanse our aura to prevent disharmonious energies.

When we take time to cleanse our aura, we naturally cultivate more intuition and clarity around our inner landscape. This empowers us to make better decisions about food, work, relationships and pleasure that are more in our harmony with our self, our community and our living planet.

auraCleansing the aura is also an effective way to develop contact with the body’s energy field and learn what affects the field. Checking in with the aura and performing the cleansing exercise will enables us to see certain patterns. For example, we may notice that we feel drained after spending time in a smoky room, with a person that talks excessively or with someone who is not aware of his/her boundaries. Doing an aura cleanse after one of these encounters will help to revitalize the energy field and is a compassionate way to take care of ourselves with judging or cultivating resentment towards others. Other times, it is important to do an aura cleanse after doing a lot of work, spending time around a lot of people, or visiting a hospital.

Aura Cleanse Visualization

Sit comfortably in a cross-legged position. Bring your breath and awareness to muladhara (root chakra) located at the perineum just between the genitals and just below the cervix in women. Drop your awareness down into the base of the spine using the exhale. Imagine your breath as an anchor falling down, down into the body, feeling the warmth at the base of your body. Keep the concentration focused on the muladhara for several moments. If possible, visualize the muladhara as a clear red orb, slowly spinning. If you can’t see this, simply try to gain a sense of warmth or heaviness sitting at the base of the spine.

grounding cordNow visualize a cord of light, your grounding cord, like a root extending down into the earth. Imagine, as you reach the center that you are plugging into the energizing core of the earth. Feel the pulse of the planet, the heartbeat of the Mother Earth surging up through your grounding cord, into the base of your being. Spend several minutes in communion with the center of the earth, noticing the color and form your grounding cord takes. If you wish, you can take a few moments to run earth energy up the grounding cord and through your spine and out the crown of the head. This helps to loosen any blocks or stagnancy before doing the full aura cleanse.

After a few moments of running earth energy, visualize or imagine a boundary around your body, a boundary that encompasses your aura. This boundary is usually egg-shaped, like a balloon and sits about one and a half to two feet in front of you, beside you, above you, behind you and below you. Notice any sensations where your aura crosses through and meshes with your body.

Imagine that your aura is a bright color, forming a full sphere, like an eggshell around your body. At first you may simply imagine this boundary, but with time, you will begin to see the actual shape of your own aura. When this is possible, you can then see if you need to push out any of the edges that are too close to your body, or pull in edges that are too far away to make the field smooth. Allow your energy field to talk to you, to show you any parts that need to be smoothed out. Let your mind and/or your hands do the work.

After your field has been straightened, recheck the color. Is it the same as you first visualized or did it shift to another color(s)? What sensations did you feel as you moved and played around with this energy space surrounding your body?

Now, pull in the aura boundary in so it is only an inch away from your body. You are pulling in your field, and squeezing anything out that is dark or muddled. Visualize your aura pushing out the unwanted or excessive energies, allowing them to flow down and out through the grounding cord. Do this for several minutes. If any images, issues or negative words come up during the cleanse, imagine them going down through the grounding cord, taken back to the center of the earth where it will neutralize.

You may or may not see negative or muddled energies flowing out of the aura and body. Maybe there is a sensation of cleansing or simply, the intention to cleanse. To enhance this process, you may use a mantra, or repetitive sound, to intensify the cleansing. You can also use the seed syllable, AUM (often seen spelled as Om but pronounced with an ah—uh—mm sound). You can repeat this sound for several moments aloud or in your head as you cleanse your aura.

aura energy field

 After a few moments, pop the aura boundary back to its original place and visualize your energy field filling up with a brilliant color such as white light, brilliant blue or purple or pink. Reshape the field as needed, aiming to visualize the aura about two feet around your body, in the front, back, below, above and alongside. Imagine any bright color swirling and revitalizing your aura and body. Notice the difference in your energy field, how you feel lighter and brighter.

Now, recheck the grounding cord and choose any color for your grounding cord for the day. Then, come back into the awareness of the body. Touch the earth and slowly open your eyes. Write down any experiences you had. Did you see any color or have any sensations before you did the cleanse? Could you see the aura boundary and where it needed to be adjusted around the body? What colors or sensations did you experience once you were cleansed? Continue this exercise each evening to be sure you are re-grounded and cleansed of any energy you make pick up from your day.

**Excerpt from Sacred Path of Reiki: Healing as Spiritual Discipline © Katalin Koda, 2008

Power Animals

What is a power animal?

A power animal is a spirit guide in animal form. Cultures all over the world recognize the assistance of spirit helpers in the form of animals, birds, sea animals, and even mythological beings such as dragons or unicorns.  Many indigenous cultures believe that these compassionate helper spirits protect us from harm and we would not even be alive if we did not have them.  Although the idea of animal spirits may seem like fantasy, it is important to remember that from the shamanic perspective, there is not necessarily a negative connotation around dreams, imagination or fantasy as we are taught in Western thinking.  On the contrary, the realities are simply different from one another.  The shaman moves effortlessly between what is called ordinary reality and non-ordinary reality to find messages for healing and transformation.  Power animals are guides who reside in non-ordinary reality and can assist us in many ways.  For more on the shamanic understanding of reality, see here!

Why is it important to know who our power animals are?

Hawaiian Sea Turtle
Hawaiian Sea Turtle

The qualities that power animals carry are a real message and reflection as to where we are in our life path.  Even if we don’t necessarily connect to a magical animal helper, we can think of this guide as containing certain qualities which can help us on our path.  For example, when we dream of a sea turtle, we may think about the qualities that a sea turtle carries: relaxed in ocean currents, ability to live a long time, traveling with one’s home on one’s back.  We might ask ourselves, do we need to protect ourselves with a ‘shell?’  Are we able to relax in a variety of environments?  Do we take time out to spend a few hours sunning on the beach? Even if we think of power animals as only symbolic, there is a potent benefit to inviting them into our lives.  This also reminds us of our interconnectedness with life forms on earth and how we are all in this dance together.  Children especially love to imagine themselves as a variety of animals and playing with these helpers can open up a wealth of inner gifts.


Working with power animals is a helpful and beautiful way to connect to our inner

Katalin Drumming at Ocean's Edge, Big Island Hawaii
Drum Journey

wisdom, power and love.  There are two primary kinds of power animals: a totem animal, which I define as a lifelong helper and a medicine animal which comes for a shorter amount of time (a few weeks, months or years, as long as it is needed) to assist with a very specific purpose such as healing from a particular ailment, learning a new life lesson, bringing specific abilities.  These animals can show up in shamanic journeys, dreams, visions and in everyday life as well.

I have personally experienced many affirmations of the presence of power animal spirit helpers in my life.  The first time I ever did a power animal dance, I felt the spirit of the snake move through me, undulating, shedding skins, hissing.  The next morning I found a snake skin on the ground, and felt connected to the qualities of snake and shedding skin.  During a session along the Puna coast on the Big Island of Hawaii with a very close friend, I was told that she and I share an ‘aumakua (Hawaiian word for ancestral spirit animal), the ‘io (Hawaiian hawk).  The spirit helpers told me, that when I saw the hawk, I would know that this was truth.  After we left the session, we were driving not more than five minutes along the coast road when an ‘io, hawk, dived straight in front of the car and then perched directly in a tree in front of us.  I pulled over and we watched her watching us, piercing and pure.  Since then, I have found comfort in both my relationship with my friend as well as our connection to ‘io, the hawk.  Hawk reminds us to take a broader view on the situation, a higher perspective.  ‘Io is also traditionally connected to spirit and reminds us to cultivate connections between this world and the spirit world.

Shaman Journey Painting
Shaman Journey Painting

How do we find out what our power animal is? 

We may receive a power animal during a power animal retrieval in a shamanic session, or experience one in a dream, vision or meditation. Oftentimes, we may feel a kinship with certain animals and energies or may have even contacted a power animal when we were young.  Imaginary friends and animals of children are often power animals or spirit helpers.  I remember a period in my life when I was very young, I experienced a black panther who lived in my closet.  She would emerge at night and pace my room while I lay there completely petrified by her presence.  This went on for many months.  I’m not sure if I ever told my parents about it,  as obviously there was no physical panther in the morning.  In shamanic cultures, power often stalks us through dreams, visions and imagination, inviting us to turn and face our fears.  When we are able to truly face our fear, it often dissolves and the perceived threat becomes a source of inner power and wisdom. Later in life I was visited by the black panther and she held a great many insights for me, my dreams and ways to work with my clients.

Shamanic sessions often involve power animal retrieval.  To book a shamanic session with Katalin, please contact her!

How can we use our power animal?

Once you have received or discovered a power animal, you can journey to it and learn from it, merge with it for healing work, and ask questions about anything in your life.  Power animals are deeply compassionate and provide answers that assist your well being as well as others in your life.  It is important to remember to honor the power animal and its presence in your life.  You can do this by: merging and moving or dancing with your power animal, placing a picture of your animal on your altar, learning to journey and dialogue with your animal.

**Excerpt from Reiki Warrior, forthcoming title by Katalin Koda.




moonflowerAncient myths act like a key to unlock our innermost feelings and the myth of Inanna works to uncover our deepest, darkest truths in the form of a classic tale of initiation.  From my book,  Fire of the Goddess “Initiation is a deep surrender; it is the courage to really give ourselves over to the universe, goddess or larger self.  When we are initiated, we are taking the great leap into the unknown; it is a complete letting go.” (from Chapter Two: The Initiate, p. 24)  Many of us do not experience a formal initiation into womanhood; however, we DO experience initiatory events in our lives in the form of giving birth, losing a beloved friend or family member, experiencing trauma such as divorce or heartbreak.